Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Unethical

I always wonder why people judge others by how they look. Just because other people are not born that pretty or not physically attractive does not mean that they are bad and vicious people. In fact is the other way around. I've been giving it a thought why do people think that it is wrong for someone who is not that attractive end up with a pretty girl or handsome. Why do people have to criticize that person just for falling in love? Oh come on, don’t be jealous and ruin other people’s happiness. I never get it why people are so close minded.


Even the outside world is like that. They judge people by their appearance. Just because he or she is not pretty or handsome does not mean she can’t do her work. Oh yeah, I forgot the company chooses them because they think that they can attract more male and female clients. HELLO?!! So what if, they can attract more clients but are they able to do their job right. You know just because of people like these, people who are capable in doing the jobs right is having a hard time looking for a job. They are always rejected because of their appearance and how they look. You should be ashamed of yourself for discriminating other people.


I have experience something like this once. I went for an interview with a friend of mine. We went to interview for air stewardess for a certain airline. I know me interviewing for air stewardess. Well the advertisement I read did not mention anything about weight, so why can’t I apply. As expected, I failed. But wait this is not the best part. As I was entering the hall, the other participants were looking at me weirdly is like they are giving me this look saying that why is she here. Maybe I am paranoid but I don’t think so. Well, it was my turn to measure my weight and height. The first woman look at my weight and tells the second woman (since she is writing it down), the second woman practically giggle when she heard my weight. I am not being paranoid. It doesn’t make sense for her to giggle after she has heard my weight. That’s not all. After the so called first stage, I have to proceed to second stage where I have to do a catwalk and pose. My friend says that I should be happy that I passed the first stage, but think about it if they kick me out in the first stage because of my weight its already discrimination. By the way after I did my catwalk and pose, I stood in front of the panels. They passed to me a piece of paper and asked me to read the passage. So I read, and then they ask me smile with my teeth. Oh, this is more hurtful. She saw the hole in my teeth and she say oh… in a disgust tone. She did not let me explain about my teeth and my future plan for my teeth. So I just gave up. Maybe they are using this way to reject me. Well that’s the whole story. I did not feel sad after being rejected. I feel happier and relax knowing that if I passed I have to face all those discriminative people.


Back to my perspective, why most Malaysians are so close minded. Who cares about what other people say. To me, is not wrong being not pretty because to me a person with a good heart is the prettiest. The guy or girl you have a crush on rejected you just because of your appearance then to tell you the truth I don’t think they deserve you. You can get a guy or a girl who loves you and treats you better. Don’t let them get to you. A true lover or a true friend will like you for who you are not what they want you to become.

Monday, July 27, 2009

Positive

I started working as an admin assistant last Thursday. It was not really a job that I would really like but I am blessed to be able to get a temporary job. I am going to work while waiting for my scholarship results. I know that the percentage of me getting accepted for this scholarship is really low, around 2 %, but who knows, maybe I will get accepted. Plus, I just have to wait until end August or beginning of September. This scholarship is my only hope to further my studies. If I did not get accepted, welcome working world. Is not that I do not like working, but I really want to study broadcasting now. I am just scared that when I earn enough to further studies, my interest in studying disappears.

Those of you who are going to further your studies, you should feel fortunate. Being able to further your studies is a great opportunity. Not everyone can have it. But at the same time, I pity some of you. You are able to further your studies but you are force to take a course that you do not like just for the sake of inheriting your family business. Eventually, everything would turn out well. I am not saying that I do not feel fortunate, but the other way around. I consider myself fortunate to be able to study diploma and also to be pampered by my mom and sis. I feel grateful that my mom has put me through to college and has taken care of me all these years. I am my mom’s number 1…. Opps number 2. Nadia has taken over my place. But is okay, she get to experience what I have experience all these years.


A friend of mine has given me a thought of advice. She suggested that I should I apply for the PTPN Loan to further my studies. I find that this idea is great but I am not a risk taker. To apply for the loan, I first have to take loan for my first semester from the bank and then during my first semester I can apply for the PTPN Loan. Great is great but is very risky. I have to borrow RM9,000 from the bank. But what if I did not get accepted, I will not only lose RM9,000 I would also have to pay for the bank interest. I cannot make a rash decision and not think of the consequences. We are not only talking about my future, it also involves my mom’s future and also her money. My mom Is not that young and why should I risk my mom’s money for something that I should face and not her. Most of you will say that I can surely get the PTPN Loan but in this world there is no 100% confirmation. Thank you so much to all of you for being there for me, giving me advices, helping me but I have already made up my mind. Either I get the scholarship or I start working.


I pray every night hoping that I would be accepted for the scholarship. I even dream about me being in Korea studying, having fun, and mixing around. My dreams are really cool right. All I can do now is to be positive. I keep thinking that I would be accepted and that I am going to Korea soon. The word negative does not exist anymore. I even plan on what to bring and what I should do before I leave Malaysia. I know being too positive is not good but I rather feel happy than being sad.

In conclusion, I really really want to be accepted for the scholarship.


p/s: Ling, Lai, after the results are out, let’s hang out together yeah regardless I got accepted or not. If got accepted let it be a happy outing, but if I got rejected then please lend me shoulder to lean on. :D

Sunday, July 26, 2009

~Love~

I found myself admiring another cute Korean guy.......
Unfortunately to my family and friends, they will be torture by me...

It all started last week when I was browsing for Super Junior and DBSK videos
when I found this group........
they are a talented Korean boy-band group
just like Super Junior, DBSK and Big Bang...


it is non other than...

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2PM

From left to right(standing): Junsu, Chansung, Taecyeon, and Nickhun
From left to right(squatting): Junho, Jaebum and Wooyoung


This boy-band is really talented....
For your information, Nickhun is from Thailand...
Jaebum was born in Seattle and Taecyeon migrated to Massachusetts when he was young...
So their English is awesome......


Everyone in 2PM is awesome but i like Jaebum the most...

One moment he can be funny and cute....

And the next he can be very charismatic....
He is so charming isn't he... :D


Don't misunderstand!! I am very loyal....
He only take a 1/4 of my heart....
while Junsu from DBSK also conquers 1/4 of my heart....
Kangin is still my number 1!!!!! :D


So in conclusion, check out this group...
Their song is amazing....
'Again & Again' and 'I Hate You'
Have fun listening... :D